Thursday, September 18

Life's little pleasures

You know u just gotta "love" the days when u think to yourself

" OK OK! im going to blog! AH nice ideas!"

Then when u Hit blogger it Suddenly goes POOF!



ahhhh gotta love these days! gives you a chance to see how creative you can get. AHAH which unfortunately isn't one of my strengths! HAHA bear with me here alrighty! haha =D

well i suppose i'd definitely agree that blogging HELPS in one thing! expressing our thoughts and in a way DE-stressing! hahah =D its nice to WRITE! haha.


suddenly gt this whole ENVIRONMENTALIST persona after watching The O.C hahah =D Summer roberts! hahah one of the most superbly shaped characters in the drama. ok when i mean superbly shaped... it means personality and you can really see her maturing through the different seasons.


So what have i been doing during the Holidays? haha well... slacking for the most of the matter but yea! DRAMA fever lolols! or rather some would call "Couch" potato-ing hahaha!

I've never thought i'd be at this point right now LOLOLS! who would've thought 6 months ago i'd see myself at home watching Tv for leisure =D hahah! well hahah i guess things change! LOLOLS!


I LOVE TV dramas!

haha anyways its funny how things progressed today lolols! SO TODAY is the once a holiday "frustration" days when u choose your classes haha! so much coordination and competition lolols!

anyways managed to get the group together i guess but yea the time table is haha yea... HORRENDOUS! of the lot... hahah! but well as i'd like to say. when Life gives you a box of chocolates... you gotta learn to live with it and most importantly make the BEST out of it.

so yup... met Jona for dinner at wm lolols! funny how things turned out though haha! i was supposed to pass marv a harddrive which made me kinda pissed cuz i had to walk around with a "foreign object in your pocket" and it keeps dangling back and forth lolols! well things are cool now lolols! and jona had to pass a tennis racket to his pal Joanna lolols! =D


Funny how coincidental things can be turns out Singapore is REALLY small lolols! joanna happens to be friends with......"SeShay"? well i dont know how to spell it though but it sounds like that whose brother is Issey who I met thru kev LOLOLS!


so yup Arcading after that loolols! MY SHOT IS SUPER OFF TODAY! =( hahah! but yea finally perfect for the bonus spot Yayness! hahah very lil perfect spots today hahah! JONA... UR SICK!!! hahahah! hahah hes wicked consistent LOLOLS!

the Basketball game really gt my arm VERY VERY strained lolols! man i cant imagine how people can keep shooting accurately after 100+ points when ur hand really GETS on your nerves lolols! hahha =D


so yup! gt a mindef letter for medical. haha! MAN its been a whirlwind 3 yrs and before you know it.... ARMY -.- ROAR! hahah well next year at least...

BTT 9 oct =D hahah!

Wednesday, July 23

train ride to helll

haha! i'm Back from beijing! lolols! i wouldnt consider it much of a trip but its definitely a fun-filled experience and i loved the time i spent there =D lolols! loads of fun hanging out with you guys! Thanks Aik & Hong yi! hahaha =D


well the trip to beijing has really shown and taught me some important things and lessons in my life lolols!!! DON'T MISS YOUR TRAIN! hahahah lolols!!! well yea, i missed my return Train Ride from Beijing to Shanghai last night lolols! well Pretty Scary though.. it was like 7.20 when i reached the station and i heard the last call so yea, i thought not too bad? hahah! well yea who knows when i went there they stopped cutting the tickets.... n i was like O.O! OMGOSH!! hahah =P


well yea, Aik went "give me your ticket" and WOOSH! hahah =P he ran to help me change a ticket lolols! thanks Bro! hahah =P So yea anyways, i had ta get back by today lolols. I told myself, BY HOOK OR BY CROOK im gonna get back to shanghai! n well the rest is OK PLAIN AGONY =P


so here it comes: NICK's SURVIVAL GUIDE FOR STANDING TICKETS TO SHANGHAI FROM BEIJING


Man, when the dude at the counter told me, OK, i've changed your ticket to a standing ticket from bejing to shanghai at 8.15. and NO dont ask me anymore, There aint anymore seats or beds. LOLOLS! well in a way I feel God has really taught me a valuable lesson through this.

n that is to GRAB the OPPORTUNITY when YOU See IT! and BE ON TIME!!!!!


well in case ur wondering why? here comes the story hahah!


so what i'm left with at this point in time is
- Inital plans of sleeping through the journey ---> SCRAPPED
- Standing ticket for 13 HOURS!
- being potentially robbed? hahaha! lolols! of course that didnt happen but yea it went thru my mind u know? lolols! ur with ooolala ppl now =D
- NO MONEY IN MY PHONE!
- potentially hopeless case senario in short!

well i believe God works in mysterious ways and i guess this is God's way of showing me when life throws at you lemons, make lemonade. well I definitely feel hardened by this experience.


at first in the initial 5 hours of the trip i was standing, n man u can guess how hard it was... imagine this narrow space for walking cluttered with people. i tried to sit but yea, oh well scrap that cuz u get people walking back and forth for like EVERY SINGLE TIME I JUST SIT DOWN! ROARRR!!! lolools!! n yea i couldnt call james to tell him that my train has changed timing... which me uber anxious!!


so yea this was when God took me out of my comfort zone as in REALLY OUT of it. if things couldnt get any worse, it did. the police came in checking identification lolols! which they didnt do when i came to beijing. so yea i was like O.O! thank God i brought my Passport!!!! i was expecting some trouble to it being olypmics season and all but to my surprise the Officer glanced at my passport and looked at me: " ok its done =D" lolols! n im like WOW! ahha...


AND JUST AFTER THAT! God answered one of my prayers for getting through the train ride lolols! =D cuz i wanted to sleep SO SO SO bad hahah =P i'd practically rush at anything i could get haha... THE DINING CABIN =D my"Haven" lolols!!


the train attendant came asking if anyone wanted to buy dining cabin tickets and of course, if i'd still stick in my comfort zone i'd most probably have to really stand for the whole journey. but yea something just gave me that push and like Go! i've prepared it for you already. n thats the answer to my prayer. really. the dining cabin had everything, seats, food, water and you know normally if you wear ur contacts for more than 24 hours it probably be dry? I managed to sleep with it till the morning up till now. of course i took it out alrdy n its still MOIST! im like thank GOD =D


man.... n thats nt the end of the story yet. its morning and the cabin closes and 3 more hours to go... so what do u do? walk all the way back to cabin 3..... with a heavy bag and plastic bag. oh yea, the dining cabin is in 9. imagine the walk... UGH! i wouldnt go through that again! really survival instincts when ur at ur bare minimum.


worse part comes now. HIGH TIDE and NO TOILET! so yea the time painfully goes SO SO SO SLOW.... and im off the train and lookin around for a toilet like maddddddd. well yea the rest is history.


Met up with james. My china bro waited for me for 1.5 hours at the station, ran to my house, waited for another 1 hour, went back home which is about 1 hour away and when i called... RUSHED back down. man, I'm so thankful to have a bro like him in china haha =D

we then went to have a REAL GOOD meal after that... i definitely owed him one there. MAN can so many things really happen in one day?


well anyway met kelvin not too long after that and went with him and his colleague, amanda to eat xiao long baos =D different different types! Ma LA xiaolong! bet u havent tried that one yet! hahah! Pretty good and Cheap! hahah =P


then we were off to the Shanghai specialties store to shop for his souveniers =D lolols!! we saw this AMAZING PRO BUTCHER! we told him we wanted 250g of the Meat and Lop... EXACTLY 250g... if we took a picture at that moment.... u would probably laugh at our shellshocked faces! hahah =P dont underestimate butchers! their good with their maths and fractions! hahahah! =P


well im tired... i guess thats enough drama for a day? LOLOLOLS! Thank you so much Lord for bringing me through this and teaching me so many valuable lessons.


Apologies for this SUPER LENGTHY POST =P hahah!

Monday, July 14

HOHOHO?

HOHOHO! not too long now before i return =D lolols!!! just lets say..... 20-30 more days hahah =D yayness! lolols. im having a pretty hard time deciding when to come back now hahah =P should i come back on the 8th of august or the 15th of august or some where in between? i cant seem to decideeee roarsss!!! i end my attachment on the 8th =P ROAR!

WHY IS IT SO HARD TO DECIDE ON A DATE!?!?!?!
haizzz... call me fickle minded or what not but yea =P I CANT DECIDE! roar someone give me some ideas!!! roarrs =P
well yea that aside... I'm like recently going on a guest pleasure trip....lolols! means i just suddenly have the feeling to give some REALLY Good service lolols!!!
so yea =D n I DID! lololols!!! the guest was so happy she wrote me a card =D lolols! yayness!!! lolols!!
she wrote something like: " Nick from Cafe Studio gave EXCELLENT service". well something like that i cant remember what else she wrote lolols! i forgot to take the letter home -.- its most probably still at the work place lolools! haizzz....
well i guess today USHERing has helped me in a way or two...
Today, we had to carrry some really heavy and huge shit ={ or as my colleagues call it "ang guan cai" means literally carrying coffins hahah! yea its that huge... a few of them anyway...
but the part i hated the most has still definitely has to be the FRIGGIN HEAVY GLASSS PANELS! ROAR!!!!3 gigantic pieces of glass used to lay out on the "coffins" for the beautiful sunday brunch buffet =D when i get back i'll show u the pictures lolols!!!
Imagine a glass panel which is hmm lets say a head taller then me when im standing up... yea that huge... and the scary thing is that my colleagues say that its rumoured that in banquet they carry this huge piece of glass by themshelves... n im like O.o! u gotta be kidding me! well... no amount of moving chairs could ever prepare me for this man! hahahah =P
pretty fun day at work lolols =D we were trying to mimick different accents of the customers we have... well surprisingly thats what i love doing =D hahahahahah! well maybe its not surprising but yea.. .random no doubt lolols!! THIS POST IS SO RANDOM TO BEGIN WITH! hahaha
so heres my posting for this week? ahahah! =P totally no direction but yea! hahah =P ohoh! i might post another one in a few if i remember to about the saturday JAPANESE Restaurant and IRISH HOUSE Restaurant/Bar outing with Kel hahah =D
so yea till then =D oh oh!! BEIJING this friday =D lolols!! 12 hour train ride... geee i should've taken an airplane 2 hrs -.- but yea oh well...

Thursday, June 19

ughhh!!

I guess its just one of those days when you HAVE inspiration to write and you're too lazy to do it! =P So now, its a barren wasteland but im still gonna write nonetheless =P muahahah! well i guess one of the things that living in Shanghai and abroad has taught me is that no matter what happens the most important thing is to J.K.S - Just keep Smiling! cuz no matter what circumstances or trials you face.

and trust me in china you face ALOT! but well its how you look at it that matters, but well you know me! hahah =P i just keep smiling lols! never thought i would have one of those Shopping Spree moods lolols! but well i guess its a worthwhile purchase? hahah! bought a cap and a pair of quicksilver slips lolols! so COMFORTABLE! hahah man i hate my previous pair =P good riddance hahaha!

im gonna sidetrack abit now hahaha! you know i've been thinking pretty much lately after Cheryl's post on love languages and i guess my love languages might have changed in someway or another but i think its still the same? its something like this:

1. Time
2. Words
3. Touch
4. Service
5. Gifts

well i guess Time is on top of it all cuz to me i believe its the most precious gift anyone can give as Time is something that can't be retrieved when lost =)

Its sort of like an investment of the most expensive kind no? hahaha! if you think of it in an economic/monetary sense lolols! eg. Opportunity cost! haha its all based on how it affects you - the spending of your TIME hahah =P

Saturday, May 31

This just great

Wow i cant believe im blogging again after such a short time frame hahah =) well cuz perhaps somethings have happened that i dont wanna forget lolols =) but yea todays gonna be short haha!

ok lets see, tried the ironman shift.... from 2.30 to 12am ytd and this morning 5am to 3.15pm and during this ironman shift there were pretty interesting things going on.. haha =)
(if you wanna know ask me!)

then on to the main program... i changed my shift just for this hahah... the hyflux talk at the hong qiao millenium hotel haha! =) and and! YVONNE GOT LOST AGAIN =P hahahah! woooopsi! hahah =P don't get mad von =D hahah! she went to the hong qiao rainbow hotel instead which is just a minor difference when translated into chinese... well then again the cab drivers in china are a little hmm haha =) well anyways took photos with Olivia Lum =D the CEO of Hyflux the company which brings us the NEWWATER =D hahaha! i'll upload the pictures when i get it hahah!

well then after came the interesting part... =) the buffet! and of course the after course again which is the Japanese Ramen cuz Kelvin, Josh and KENNY weren't full hahah =D

and one thing i still cant shake off.... WHY DID I WEAR BLUE JEANSSSS!!! rahhhhhhh!!!!! Dress Code: Smart Casual -- which meant Business Shirt and *pants or jeans well... BLUE jeans were rare i guess =) hahah! lololols!

Tuesday, May 27

POSTING

lolols! i know i've not updated in a month or maybe longer then that but hahah =D here i am once again im living in china ughh ughh ughhh.... ahah the randomness of listening to a song while blogging! hahah =P

haha loads of things happened since i last blogged lols! lets see, new friends, new department, new everything lols! but wait theres one thing that hasn't changed! this DAM LAGGY INTERNET CONNECTION! hahaha =P lols! just venting lols! we have to pay 1 year straight for the broadband here lols! well half of which the landlord has already given to us =D haha!

and oh! We're having a Sushi/ Sashimi party at home tmr =D wheee lols! my roomies colleagues are coming over with a HUGE Salmon =D wooo hoo!! im gonna rush home from work tmr lols! have to work from 2.30 to 11 tmr =D hahaha! YAY more sleep hahaha for now that is! lols sat working morning again from 6am to 2.30 which means a direct change from 11pm on friday to 5 am. lets see... 6 hours to sleep which means 5 cuz i most probably wouldnt fall asleep right away lols! weeeeeeeee, all because i forgot to take leave for sat! ughh hahaha! for some business meeting with singaporeans, as long as theres free food, im there =D hahah! LOL!

Im counting down to the time i come to back to singapore already lols! about 75 days? hahah! lols its gonna be quite soon i guess haha! well CHINA gives me freedom in a way lols! =P jaahaha! I'm gonna get my driving license when i get back lols! I wanna DRIVE lolols! been putting it off for quite some time now lols! and cuz of the ERP gantries its a big deterrant lolols!! =P of all places WHY in front of my area =P lolols! just kidding hahah! i still wanna drive though lols! speaking of which, i have to start training for NAPFA! Shucks hahah! im getting blobby after coming to china hahah! lolols but gd news is that im losing weight already weee =D hahah! about 64 now lols! well i guess after i come back to singapore its gonna drop even further lols! but haha! Hurray to that! lolols!

well i know one things for sure after this attachment lols! my arm strength has definitely increased like loads... hahah! time for a change in ministry perhaps =D hahaha! Cafe? aahah! kidding =D i miss Ushering too much lolols! hahah!

well i guess thats it for now =D till next month? hahaha! just kidding lolols! i'll blog sooner bah hahah!

Monday, April 28

IM BACK =D

hi guys, finally have the time to update in like foreverrrrr hahah =D its like been close to 2 months now ? since i've been here in china haha...

i guess everyones changing in someway or another now, well when i first came to china i didnt really think i'd change much, still think that way but haha only u guys can tell if i've changed haha =P cuz im not a gd judge of that haha!

2 1/2 more months to SINGAPOREEEE!! whee hahah lolols! you know when ur so far away from home and family is the time u truly miss them the most? hahah well its so cliche but yea i have to agree with it.

I MISS MY ROOM! hahaha =D lolols! i can hardly remember what my room looks like now... ughh talk about bad memory hahah! i've been living in that very same room for like what? close to about 10 years ? haha n just when im gone for about 2 1/2 months i forget it hahah =D amazing right...

well one of the things i miss the most back in singapore is CHURCH hahah!! likewise saying, its hard to be away from the fire. that statement bears true. its pretty tough to keep the fire going, i somehow or rather find that i cant really commit to this church in shanghai as many things are different, but yea one things for sure is that no matter what changes our GOD stays the same yea =D hahah! I have to say that coming to shanghai is truly one of the most exciting yet tiring things that has happened to me so far and i wouldnt be here if not for Him =D haha...

well pros and cons hahah! U miss home and etc but at the end of the day the takeback is tremendous hahah. one things for sure, I really thank God for my Cell Group and my church =D haha i dont know where i'd be today if i wasn't a christian! just the thought of it though makes me scared as i wouldn't be here in shanghai that for the first of it and i wouldn't have come to know many of my good friends and brothers and sisters and not forgeting my bros =D

haha =D well THIS IS a lengthy post i guess but hah =D this is what u guys expected right after me not blogging for like months!!! hahah... oh yea for those of you who are taking you A levels, GAMBATTE =D hahahah! you know i just feel that when u start the journey, you feel the road is long and when u get to the middle, you think ughh oh my gosh... its still a long way more and you wish it were over and try to speed through it and when its finally over you might sometimes look back and say, why hadn't i tried harder? i had so much time! well only one thing to say haha! Life's not very big on giving us chances so make the best of them when they come you way and leave no regrets. but of course =D GOD is very big on giving us second chances =D woo hoo! hahah...

and of course to Nissi Light! Im missing u guys a whole LOT! hahahh... cant wait for the day i reach back home and join u guys again =D and thank God for Hsien Tze hahah! wooo hoo! hahah =P

Man it just feels that i've been away for a darn long time hahah! but yea its only halfway and im not giving up =D perseverance! hahah! thats all for now! toodles!

Wednesday, March 19

SHANGHAI

hahah HELLO guys! im back hahah.. im in shanghai like finally lols! im adapting well to the culture and society. its a really fun fun city if you look at it in a different perspective hahaha! but one sucky thing about it right now is that i forgot the route to go to church!!! arghhh

im so sad hahah... i miss church services and sermon! hahah and Sat esp! it just feels weird not going to church now. but im very very very happy that God put in my life loads of pro pool players to play with here =D ahaha! my agent, kenny and my buddy in shanghai jonathan haha! yes another jona lols!! but yea man u'll always be my bff man jona bro hahaha! lolol its so fun to play pool here in china =D the big big big difference form singapore is that u have fu wu yuans to help you rack! hahaha!

hahah super heated battle today between my agent a.k.a nai pa! hahaha we kept having the fu wu yuans running to our table cuz we finish too fast hahah then it ended up like a tele show for them hahah they kept asking who won =P hahah! me me me! muahahah 18-10 =D lols!! HAPPY!!

but nearing the end he sparked up and became much much more accurate... almost scary hahah almost gt one cued but we always cant finish off the black ball yet... pity hahah! i wanna have a one cue game b4 i leave shanghai! hahaha =D so awesome hahah jonathan is the best pool player i've played with so far hahah.... we're like racing. every ball finds its way into the hole perfectly haha(applies to both hor! haha).

hhaah apart from that i think i know why God sent me here. hahah =p i've been getting some inspirations for a business and funny that it should be that way cuz seems like something like that is in the pipelines back home. well nothings concrete yet. but one things for sure =D when i get back i've got a whole new inspiration on input into our Usher ministry to improve our consistency and values =P hahah! i love making people smile =) hahaha!

I love my job cuz we're encouraged to go the extra mile for the customer =D thats like so awesome! hahaha =) and the stories i've heard and seen is so touching la! haha i wanna do something like that too b4 i leave hhaha =D nothing beats a smile and thanks from a happy customer hahah! im gonna put my best foot forward for this attachment haha =D

im blogging a very very very very long post today i know! ahgahah i jsut have been feeling so outdated as of late and the lack of english is killing me! hahah but oh well i love speaking in mandrin or like we say it here Pu Dong hua hahaha! gives me a feeling of closeness whenever i use it hahah! im finding my roots again =D lolls!

although reading is still a bit of a problem now but everything is coming to me slowly but surely hahah! perhaps being away for a bit of time is actually good haha =D im so glad that my cell is growing!!! haha i love u guys!~!! hahaha i wonder if all this time, the thing that was preventing us from growing was actually me...... hahaha but yea! no matter what im not giving up this new life and path i've chosen to walk for the rest of my life on earth haha =D im sent out. lols!

i remember i've always been singing here i am send me in church but i never really knew what it meant until God said go to china. i thought it would've been horrible and painful but i wanna give thanks to God and all my bros and sistas at home! hahah =D i'm loving it now! oh oh! i've got a chance to share with jonathan last sat...i hope im able to share even more with him and bring him to church ahhaah! pray for him if you have time yea! hahah =)

DVDS are lovely here hahaa! they're cheaper lols! i finished watching some dramas already so nice la! Gossip Girl, Dicey Business... etc etc WE BOUGHT ALOT! hahah i just bought OC seasons 3-4 today =P hahaha! EXP! hahah 100rmb lols! oh well lols! haha i always wanted to watch it! hahah the girls are watching the wu zhun show now la dunno what princess something one hahaha! quite nice i think lols! was watching it today b4 my agent called hahah! ughhh tmr night shift lols 2pm -1030pm =D SLEEP SLEEP SLEEP hahaha!!! i wan morning shift =P hahaha!! but aft shifts gd too! lols!!!

I LOVE U GUYS AT HOME! hahahah i miss my family, friends, bed, DOGS! hahahah! we're really fortunate to be living in singapore lols!!! hahaha well technically im shanghai but hahah!!

Thursday, February 14

perhaps the final post for sing

Hey Guys! this is perhaps my final post while im in Singapore. lols. its gonna be get really busy starting from tomorrow when i start mugging real HARD for the exams.

haha im a late bloomer what can i say haha! even in studying =P haha. i know its a REALLY BAD habit but it gets to me quite alot haha.

I really love these songs that kok seng recommended to me haha! lols! so its up now =D


oh yes! todays VALENTINES =D i know some people who are really happy today haha!
what a day to be holed up at home studying =P haha!


haha im feeling Jazzy now lols! she does have a nice voice lols! coincidentally the singer whos singing these songs now is FROM SINGAPORE! haha talent talent


Been thinking alot lately, after watching FlyWheel last Sat at church, it set me thinking about many issues in my life and i've got to admit theres some areas of my life in which i've not acknowledged God in. Coincidentally the verse that was mentioned in the show, proverbs 3:5-6

really struck me as it was something i brushed off the night before when i decided to read it on my laptop wallpaper.


yea, i guess its something im really praying about. this whole week was filled was so many distractions and TEMPTATIONS TO EAT! argh! lols! oooohhh man, all the CNY goodies are still lying around my house haha.

haha well, i had better get back to studying if i'm going to be able to go to Shanghai in peace.

haha so long guys =D

im so gonna miss you all!

Wednesday, January 23

off i go then

well, i guess its not too long now before i say goodbye for awhile! ahha, at first it started off with a call which i was reluctant to answer. the person on the other line was none other than the one who saved me from this life of misery and sadness. He asked me to go, i asked: "where?" He replied: "China". i thought why? why of all places China when i couldnt even speak the language well and with all that completely unaware of what to do or say but a soft at first reluctant reply, "yes,i will go" there were interviews upon interviews, forms upon forms before where i stand and am today. yes i'm going to china, shanghai to be exact to work.

at first, it was oh wow! its gonna be fun, till they told me sorry no accomadations, no food, nothing and oh you have to process your Visa, your Exit Permit, Your Air Tickets and of course please pack your baggage for below 20kg =). Yes its not too bad, im still Smiling, why? u might ask when i can be in singapore, which i've been offered a place here for 6 months. well i guess thats obedience, no matter what happens i'm not giving up because He never gave up on me.

well enough of the "oh So Sad" sorta feeling! hahah, its gonna be fun =D. things are going to be done independantly and so on and so forth, but yes ill miss all of you guys dearly haha. And oh, from what i know ill be leaving near end Feb. and just Aik Leng said, same here those words "from where i stand right now, thats not long from now". well thats the same meaning but not necessarily the same words hahah =D

i actually wanted to keep to the last minute, as hush as possible but somehow i jsut couldn't ya know? i dont know. to think that i'd be away for this period of time just left me kinda uneasy inside abit, so viola here it is. all better ha.


I'm gonna miss you guys and the times we've spent together....i really am

Tuesday, January 15

POSTING!

well yea! i know its been a long long time. well sorry folks for the absence lols! especially for those who mentioned to me about it last sat =P ha!

haha, I've been quite busy this whole time i guess and i really couldn't find the time to blog. haha Opportunity Cost =D, well that is the Benefit must outweigh the cost of doing this activity ha! so today is finally that day so viola!


it kinda seems like theres still a short period of time before i disappear for quite abit. haha, i dont wanna say anything else until its confirmed ha. for those who know what im talking about yea... thanks for the warm regards and dinners and stuff =) really appreciate it. thank you guys =D haha.

at least i wont be alone when im away from home lols! =D
the time is pretty hard to bear, but i guess its a golden opportunity for me to straighten out what i want as well as whether to write the final chapter for one of the stories in my life. i've been dragging it a little too long, even when it seems bleak but somehow theres that something that keeps me holding on.

well till next time! when the benefit outweighs the cost of my time! haha